"so I wait for you like a lonely house
till you will see me again and live in me.
Till then my windows ache"

-Neruda

paris!

http://ohhappyday.com/2011/06/goes-to-paris


BEST. GIVEAWAY. EVER.

"Don't you quit. You keep walking, you keep trying, there is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon. Some come late. Some don't come until heaven. But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. It will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come." - Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

EVICTION

aarrhghhghhgghhh
i want this baby OUUT!!!!!!!
im issuing an eviction NOTICE

im raising the rent!


i want to run a marathon and eat spicy foods and drink red raspberry leaf tea and stick evening primrose capsels where they shouldnt go, and dtd (actually thats one thing i really dont want to do) and eat an entire pineapple, take warm baths, have my membranes stripped, be dialted to a four, and eat these weird labor cookies, and mow the lawn, walk the curb, drink castor oil, and do squats!

i want my water to fully break instead of just leaking out for days and days
i want to hold my child and use my breast pump and make brandon change his first dirty diaper!

i want her to pack her umbilical cord and placenta and move out!!!!


i want the hollywood water breaking moment!

i want her to stop kicking me in the ribs! i want her to face the right way so i dont have terrible back labor!

i want my OB to talk to me about anesthetic options! i want the epidural now!

i want him to tell me that i have to be induced immediately and i dont have a choice!

i want to have regular pooing habits again, and to fit into my clothes!


i want to dress her in all the adorable things in her closet!
i want to change her diapers and have her spit up all over me!

i want that baby smell!
i want to fall asleep with her in the rockingchair!

i want to be the comfort!

i want to finish packing my hospital back, i want to practice breathing and i want to get in the car, drive to the hospital and HAVE THIS BABY!

im serious!!!!!! i'll do it! i will!

IM GOING CRAZY WAITING PEOPLE!

jacqueling.

dear jacqueling,
never ever ever buy/look at boden mini website for little girls EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN! holy cow i want to buy everything for grace!

and it's not even her size yet!
ahhrhghjkljioalkmg!
love
jacqueling.

she's the image of loveliness.

this may or may not be funny to anyone but i was craving gelatin candies- like gummy worms, gummy bears, peach ohs, watermelon ohs, and chocolate covered almonds and macaroni salad.

so brandon went to the store to get me those things because
i'm not dressed/cute enough to go anywhere.

seriously,
he asked me to wait in the car.

in his defense, i am wearing bright yellow shorts, have hairy sunburned legs, a bloody lip thats chapped, stringy greasy hair, and a pregnancy shirt that still shows my belly because it's too small that has big butterflies all over it.

yeah

the image of loveliness.

i miss my short hair so so so much on hot days like this.

DEAR DUMB DOG OF MINE: IT'S RAINING, SEEK SHELTER IN THE 200 DOLLAR IGLOO I BOUGHT YOU!
LOVE,
JACQUELINE